Wordless Wednesday (( Filipino's Foods ))

' Halo - Halo ' - Yummylicious !

Mr. Donut

' Balot '

Jar of Hearts

Strawberry Delight

It's just a simple blessing & celebration yesterday :) 

Gonna have another one this coming Sunday !

His weight is 4.2kg, 57cm. 

* Hugs & kisses *

Yesterday Once More

I feel like it was just yesterday....

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we're friends

Nov/ Dec 2002

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we're engaged

29 Dec 2007

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we're married

23 Oct 2010

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38 weeks + 1 day later......

A baby has born on 23 July 2011

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and tomorrow.....

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he's turning 1 MONTH.

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how fast time flies, duh!

I am sure few years later he will be reading this.... so...

HAPPY FULL MOON MY DEAR SON... 

MAMA AND PAPA LOVES YOU....

Once in a Lifetime Wedding Gown

 I couldn't resist to join Cath-j.com Blog Guest :)


Hi and Hola.

I don't have a so-called-dream-wedding-gown actually. 
Because I am one-of-a-kind-plus-sized-woman, so apa yang muat I juz grabbed for it.
 I love white wedding gown, I wore ONE while walking down on the aisle and THREE during my studio + outdoor photo-shoot. Haha.
Tamak kan?

Actual Wedding Day - This gown cost me A LOT coz I rented it from other Bridal (EVER BEST). 

Studio Photo Shoot

Outdoor - Tg. Aru Beach - My favourite!

Wordless Wednesday (( Favourite cookies ))

my favorite cookies - pineapple tart !

source : http://eryantierdah.blogspot.com/

Before I was a Mom

http://inspiredbygavin.com/

i saw this beautiful post on the above-mentioned blog. 

it's beautiful and i couldn't resist to re-post and to dedicate it to all Mommies :)

Before I was a Mom,

I never tripped over toys

or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn’t worry whether or not

my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never been puked on.

Pooped on.

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind

and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held down a screaming child

so doctors could do tests.

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night

watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held a sleeping baby just because

I didn’t want to put her down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces

when I couldn’t stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small

could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.  

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,

I didn’t know the feeling of

having my heart outside my body..

I didn’t know how special it could feel

to feed a hungry baby.

I didn’t know that bond

between a mother and her child.

I didn’t know that something so small

could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night

every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth,

the joy,

the love,

the heartache,

the wonderment

or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much,

before I was a Mom.

'My Boys Over Flowers'

Hi and Hola.

I am a bit sad today. My tears run down from my cheeks. After two weeks of spending time with my hubby, he has to go back again to his workplace. But I am going to treat it as if he is going away for outstation because he will be back again in two weeks time. The difficult part is he won't be there to accompany me to wake up at nights to feed our little boy and the hardest part is I still feel his presence in this room.

These two weeks has been a great moment for me. He helped me a lot with house chores and within that short time I saw so much of him that I learned to appreciate and felt thankful to God for letting me know and have him as a husband.  I might never really realize it before of what a wonderful person he is. Even though we're almost broken up once, I think I did have chosen the best man in my life and I'll never regret my decision.  I always believe God bestowed him to me. God must have loved me so much to bless me with a wonderful man like him to cherish me for the rest of my life.

I can say I have been a 'strong' person all this while, in any ways. I've been apart from him for almost ten years, I've been living far away from my family, alone, for almost 4 years now, and I've been through some hard times all by myself.


I am thankful to God, because of the long distance and hard times that I've been through, I am now more matured and could stand on my own feet. I admit that there are times when I kneel down saying prayers to God with tears in my cheeks, begging HIM to answer my prayers so that my Dear Husband will get a job here in Sabah.  But I know God knows the best for us, maybe it's not the time yet, or it's just a matter of time. I believe that somehow, someday, we will be together.

I am indeed very much blessed.

My Story #3

Hi and Hola.

Maybe it's the last part of the story. Just MAYBE ;p

I was sent to the Labour Room, it was 6.30pm. An Indian Lady Doc was in-charge during that time. She asked me same questions like when I was in PAC. Thanks God I didn't encounter any problems/ complications during my pregnancy such as BP problems, Glucose etc, except the Placenta Previa in my early pregnancy and breech baby during my 32nd weeks.

I was attached with the CTG thingy -  I've just got to know the name of the machine from my brother this morning. It was attached to my tummy to monitor baby's heart.

Honestly, I was in pain during that time. Macam mau berak betul. Can not tahan oh. After the Lady Doc asked me several questions, I was left all alone, until I am fully dilated - 10cm. Nasib ada bell ba untuk ditekan. Tapi tidak guna juga sebab dorang suruh tunggu until 10cm. They said I might fully dilated at 9.00p.m or later than that. What? Seriously? It means I have to wait for another 2/3 hours? Betul2 sakit sudah, yang betul2 macam mau terberanak sudah tapi masi kena suruh tunggu, itu bidan cakap, kalau sakit mau beranak mau tunggu itu contractions punya bacaan sampai 50. Ngam ka tu ah hehe. Actually there was a machine attached to the wall, everytime sakit perut saya tinguk tu bacaan (walau yang paling sakit sekali pun itu bacaan 30++ saja). Adui... macam mana la rasa sakit dia kalau tu bacaan sampai 50 tu ah? I press the bell 3 times tapi masih lagi kena suruh tunggu. Dorang cakap, jangan dulu PUSH nanti rahim koyak. Berabis saya tahan tapi rasa mau Push tu actually datang automatically bah. I asked the bidan lagi, saya nda Push tapi betul2 nda boleh tahan sudah. I was really in pain suda masa tu. Ngam2 masa tu ada tu Lady Doc sana and tiba2 dia cakap 'Buli Suda, buli suda, padahal belum kena check bukaan lagi, masa tu dekat2 jam 8 sudah. Kelam-kabut juga la dorang masa tu - ada 3 orang; the Lady Doc, bidan dan pelatih. Bila saya dengar tu Doc cakap 'buli sudah', I berabis PUSH, 3x push kalau nda silap & my baby came out. What a relief :)

I don't remember much actually because everything happened so fast :) My very first question was 'my baby ok, Doc?', and she answered my baby is alright. I almost cry when I first heard him cry. The Lady Doc asked whether I already know my baby's gender or not. I'm not sure actually because I never bother to know. I wanted it to be surprised from the first place. I did asked the Doctors who did several ultrasounds during monthly check-ups, but I never take it seriously. 'Is it baby girl, Doc?'. When my baby was handed to me, I am surprised, seriously, because it's a boy :) I still remember during my 1st trimester, I told a friend of mine that I have an instinct, a strong instinct indeed that I'm carrying a baby boy in my tummy... it was because I never like to wear any make-ups, lipsticks or whatsoever like every woman does. As time goes by, even I never bother, I hope it's a girl, and I actually had chose a nice name for 'her', but that was not important anymore... I've got to accept the fact that my baby is a boy... and he's a healthy baby boy indeed. My baby was handed at me and they lied him down on my chest. He's crying but I was so happy :) The 'JM' started to 'repair' the tears and it was the toughest part I had to endure. Seriously. Sakit bah. 

They finished their work almost 9.00pm and they left me all alone, without my baby. They didn't change my clothes or even cleaning the 'bloods' on my bedsheet. Mungkin pasal tukar shift sudah so they left the task to one another. Sungguh tidak patut. But I can rest lah (kasi sinang hati). I was sent to the ward at 11.00 something. Imagine how long I have to wait. I sat down on a wheelchair with my baby. One of the nurses sent me out from the labour room and I was happy seeing my mom was waiting (with my sister) outside the labour room. They asked me my baby's gender, and I said 'LUCAS'. Actually dorang main2, kalo baby boy mau kasi nama dia si Lucas hehe... My mom handed me foods, lapar bah masa tu...lepas bersalin kena kasi minum Milo cair saja hehehe.

Bah nanti saya sambung lagi, buli? 

My Story #2

Hi and Hola.

It's been a while baru dapat sambung blogging. 

Sleepless nights bah, bukan saja malam, siang pun sama hehe. Tapi worth it ba kan... 

Everytime my baby tidur, macam saya tidak sampai hati mau tidur and yang paling penting  sya suka tinguk dia tidur :)

Okay ni kali saya mau sambung cerita masa saya sudah sampai di Hospital Likas.

 Masa tu jam 4 p.m sudah.

D Hospital Likas, saya terus pigi di PAC ka tu nama dia kalo nda silap, masa tu ada 2 orang nurse in-charge, 4 orang doktor, patient ada la dalam 2/3 orang. Sampai saja di sana trus tu nurse suruh sya pigi tandas, mau test urine. Lepas kena test urine, tu nurse cakap OK juga dan suruh saya tukar baju warna pink, sedondon dengan sarong dia hehe. Lepas tukar pakaian, itu Lady Doctor Cina yang 'entertain' saya, lupa tinguk nama dia sebab nervous masa tu nda tau kena buat apa lepas tu Itu Lady Doctor tanya la apa 'signs' saya masa tu, saya bagitau before sampai hospital, baby mengeras every 5 minutes. lady Doc tanya samada ada darah or 'mucus' yang keluar or not, saya cakap tiada... Trus dia bagitau dia mau check bukaan a berapa cm suda, masa tu saya tambah nervous and malu kalau2 bukaan saya nda cukup untuk saya admit di wad. Lady Doc pun ambil glove and lubricator untuk cek bukaan, saya dengar dia kira 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 and stop. Biar betul, 6cm? Saya pura2 lagi tanya tu Lady Doc berapa cm sudah, dia cakap 6cm sudah ni tapi kenapa muka ko relax saja? Tidak sakit kah? Memang kamu tahan sakit kah? Sebab kalo orang lain pusing kiri-kanan sudah n, lebih2 lagi kalau anak pertama? Saya jawab sakit juga la tapi masi boleh tahan lagi. Nda sangka 6cm sudah kan Doc... Ya nanti mau kasi pecah water bag supaya tidak lama kamu tunggu, nanti ada kosong di labour room kamu bole masuk sudah... tidak payah masuk wad.

Masa tu saya masih blur lagi samada mau percaya atau tidak.. Lady Doc start sudah pasang jarum di tangan kanan saya and ambil darah di tangan kiri. Then jantung baby kena monitor sudah... Macam2 berada dalam fikiran saya, sedih, grmbira, takut... etc. Mau pigi jumpa My Mom minta tolong dia inform my Hubby pun nda dapat coz masa tu jantung baby sedang kena monitor, dengan menggunakan alat yang kena lilit di perut. Masa tu menyesal juga nda nform Hubby awal2... kunun2 mau minta restu sebelum bersalin, mana sempat lagi.... Hubby pun mesti terkejut... Baby nda sabar mau tengok dunia..... After hantung baby kena monitor, dalam 15minit la, saya cepat2 pigi jumpa my Mom yang masa tu ada di luar. Saya cakap tidak lama lagi saya mau kena hantar pigi Labour Room sudah ni, ingatkan baru 1cm, rupa2nya 6cm suda... Itu saja yang saya sempat cakap sama my Mom, tu nurse nda sporting, dia suruh saya jangan jalan2, pigi ko naik di katil nanti ko terberanak dia bilang. Trus saya balik pigi katil, baring diam2.. nda tau mau buat apa... Tu Lady Doktor balik2 tengok saya sebab dia hairan saya diam2 ni, dia cakap kalau rasa2 mau berak bagitau cepat2.

Tidak lama lepas tu Lady Doctor datang lagi dan bagitau dia mau kasi pecah water bag. Sempat lagi saya tanya, sakit ka Doc? Dia jawab, tidak sakit juga tapi bergantung juga samada susah atau senang pecah nanti. Masa tu lagi nervous sebab saya nda dapat bayangkan macam mana itu water bag mau kena kasi pecah. Nampaknya lebih kurang sama juga dengan cara cek bukaan tadi... dia kas pecah dalam 5-10 minit juga la.... nda sakit tapi ada ngilu2 sikit... bila suda pecah, rasa tu ada air keluar, and rasa macam mau berak juga hehe. Kena tanya lagi soalan2 samada ada masalah atau tidak waktu pregnant, berapa umur masa datang haid yang pertama, etc.

Masa water bag suda kena kasi pecah contractions saya 1:10 juga... So saya tetap baring diam2 di atas katil saya, tunggu giliran masuk labour room. Lama juga la... Dalam 6.20p.m saya dengar ada kosong suda di Labour Room and Lady Doc suruh itu nurse hantar saya.... Now it's my turn, adui... nervous yang menjadi2 suda.... Mau nangis pun ada, seriously... I couldn't believe it's my turn! Sedih lagi sebab nda sempat minta 'blessing' dari Hubby and yang paling penting Hubby tiada di sisi saya :(

Time kena sorong pigi Labour Room (atas katil), ramai orang sedang tunggu2 di luar tapi saya nampak my Mom saja :( Terlebih nervous & masa tu tidak pakai spectacles sudah, sempat lagi bagi itu spectacles to my Mom sampai nurse tanya, 'kenapa ko tidak pakai spec, ko buli nampak juga ka?' So saya juz cakap saya boleh nampak juga kalo jarak dekat :) My Mom sempat juga put the Cross sign di dahi saya and I felt so relieved... Walau hubby tiada, cukup la blessing dari My Mom.

Sampai di Labour Room (No. 7) kena tanya lagi soalan2 sama yang macam kena tanya di PAC. Jantung baby pun start kena monitor... balik2 lagi haus masa tu, tapi nurse cakap jangan terlampau banyak minum, nanti baby susah mau keluar... tapi macam mana juga kalau saya haus... hehe...

What will happen next?

~ To Be Continued~ 

My Story #1

Hi and Hola.

Today I would like to share a story ... a story about the day I  bring my Dear Son to this world ... hehe...

My EDD (expected Due Date) was supposed to be tomorrow (6 Aug 2011). But my baby can't really wait, I delivered him @38weeks + 1day, it was 2 weeks ago. Yeah, my DS aged 2 weeks :)

It was a fine Saturday morning when I felt something discomfort.... I mean I was having back pain when I woke up that early morning... it's about 5 or 6 a.m... I woke up very early that morning because I had planned to go to Tamparuli town with my parents to have 'sau mai' at our favourite restaurant. I was a bit blur, asking myself 'is this the sign that I'm going to deliver my baby soon?' I never know the labour signs, I did read and asked my family and friends' experiences... but still not sure.... the signs was not always the same...

I took my bath and washed my hair immediately... Sempat lagi pigi 'poo' hehe... After finished my shower, I told my mother about my 'discomfort' and she asked me whether I still want to go to town or not. I said yes, and told her that I better do some walks so I will dilate faster.

We reached at town at 8 a.m and I really had a pleasant breakfast that morning :)

 At least I won't crave for 'sau mai' during my confinement period later, in case I will deliver earlier than the expected date. By the time I finished my breakfast, I felt the 'contractions'... Is it the contractions? How do I know since this is my first time? I guess so... Baby start 'mengeras' sudah masa tu... everytime baby mengeras, perut pun sakit... Sempat lagi pigi beli lihing, baldi, susu baby (in case tiada milk supply masa tu... nanti baby lapar). And I kept on asking myself... Is this  the day?

We went back home at 11 a.m... Contractions in every 15/20 minutes... Sakit... Tapi masih bole tahan la... I told my hubby... Hubby suruh baby tunggu sampai dia balik on 29th July... Oh my... ;p

I went to the toilet so many times just to check if I had blood spot or whatsoever... Tapi tiada tanda2 darah or water bag pecah.... so I was like... should I go to the hospital or not... tiada spot pun... betul2 blur...

I remembered I was lying on the sofa for hours that day... 

And still thinking about going to the hospital or not.... 

Took my lunch at 1 p.m... Makan kuih 'kouchung' lagi :)

Later at 2 - 3 p.m, the contractions is every 5/10 minutes.... Then I asked my mom to tell my uncle to send me to the hospital.... I didn't tell my DH that I was on the way going to the hospital, the reason was I might be embarrassed if the Doctors ask me to go home because it's not the 'time' yet ;p, and I almost left my 'hospital bag' at home for the same reason :D

What will happen next?

~ To be Continued ~

New addition to the family!

Hi and Hola.

I really miss blogging :)

Punya la lama sya tidak update blog. Kenapa tu ah? Haha. Super-duper bz bah... Now buli suda update blog ni sebab ada 3 months maternity leave. Jgn jealous :)

And yeah.. I guess some of u already know that I've safely delivered a healthy baby boy... Weight 3.35kg on 23rd July 2011 @ 2003hrs. My life had change... Completely... Yeah, I am a first time mother, and still adapting my new life. Now I know how it feels to become a mother... 
You'll never know until you become one :)

I thanked God for the safe delivery of my Dear Son JR... and for the smooth delivery progress I've encountered that day. Lepas ni mau beranak lagi la hahaha. To be honest nda sakit juga bau bersalin, tapi saya nda suka the 'jahit-menjahit' punya part. Whatever it is, the pain is still bearable and I'm glad it's over :)

I will tell you the whole story when I am free okay ! Can't wait also... 

Wordless Wednesday (( Our Bundle of Joy ))

My first attempt on Wordless Wednesday!

Introducing our bundle of joy, Jacob Raphael Andrew a.k.a JR ^.*